Monday, August 29, 2016

Monday Meditation

Mondays | by Diana Galban


Once every 2-3 months, I stop what I'm doing for a second and I just start bawling. I've come to think of it as power crying. Just full-on sobbing. It lasts about 50 seconds and then just like that, I'm fine and back to putting sea salt butter on my toast or finishing that email. When I was writing my thesis, I spent a week having several of these power cries a day, but that's a story for another day. 

I've spoken about my complicated relationship with crying or just accepting my emotions overall before. For one, as a woman, I think there is a stigma attached to emotions. Just a week ago I watched a segment on the Daily Show where a woman said Hillary Clinton wasn't fit to be president because she was a woman and could "start a war" during a particularly PMS-y day. Secondly, I have things to do and can't do them if I'm laying on my living room floor crying. 

This summer I caught up on my amazing-ladies-summer-reading where I finally finished Tina Fey's Bossypants and Mindy Kaling's Why Not Me?. They both talk about moments where they felt completely overwhelmed by work and life and had tear-filled breakdowns. Tina even has a hilarious chart about the most stressful careers in the world (with comedy writer being way down the scale) to put things into perspective and laugh at her own feeling of "everything is falling apart"-ness. In Kelly Cutrone's If You Have to Cry, Go Outside she mentions that if she cried and gave up every time she felt her business was falling apart, she wouldn't be where she is now. 

A few years ago, I would've never admitted to anyone that what I was doing was "too much" instead, I would've nodded my head and said everything was great! Now that I'm older, I'm committed to being a bit more candid, to others and mostly, to myself. So it is okay to cry on your toast if you haven't slept in a couple of days and you're tired. Then, get back to work. 

I watched a funny video on Vogue where Lena Dunham tries to meditate before tackling a grueling to-do list. Seconds in, her mind is filled with questions about her relationship, her friends, and her work, making it impossible for her to disconnect for a few minutes. 

In an effort to minimize stress and the way I handle certain situations, I too have tried meditating and I couldn't relate more to this video. I tried to meditate just this morning and all I came up with was "I wonder if I left any bread in my pantry before leaving. Would mice get in my apartment if I did?" and other concerns (have there been any more cases of the zika virus in Florida this week?). However, I'm hopeful that with practice it'll get better because we all need 15 minutes of silence, including silence from ourselves. 

There are many apps that you can use to help you (because who are we kidding? It's a milennial's world now, baby!), my favorite is Headspace. Or, you can follow Lena's approach and get a TM mantra for a couple thousand dollars. Although I'd need more a few deep breaths to deal with that credit card bill. 

Psssttt- Because it's Monday and we could all use a little inspiration:

Matthew Ahn has set a world record for the fastest time to travel to all New York City subway stations, twice. 
* Man Repeller's Leandra Medine introduces herself to her Nolita neighbors. I dare you not to smile.

"Enjoy the moment" 

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